10/26/2024 — Life should not stop, yet I long for the day when we’ll be able to live fully again…

From: Ira Kapitonova in Kyiv (Day 975)

At the set time that I appoint I will judge with equity.
When the earth totters, and all its inhabitants,
it is I who keep steady its pillars.
Psalm 75:2-3

I usually write my updates at night when everything is quiet, and I can hear my thoughts. The past couple of days, I was falling asleep before I could write anything, but also the days seemed pretty “uneventful” for our wartime reality. But it couldn’t last…

Tonight, a Russian drone hit an apartment building in Kyiv. The fire consumed the upper floors of a 25-storey building. So far, there was a report of 10 injured and a 16-year-old girl killed.

While I was processing this news, a new report came—a missile attack on residential quarters in Dnipro. As of now, three people were killed and 13 injured.

In moments like this, I wonder how the world can continue living. Why doesn’t everyone freeze in their footsteps because even the air seems too thick for breathing. However, in the past 10 years of war (and especially almost 3 years that it’s gotten pretty close and personal), I’ve learned that it’s impossible. Even tomorrow, we are going to wake up and go about our business, seemingly fine, yet each of us carrying the burdens of grief and trauma. Life should not stop, yet I long for the day when we’ll be able to live fully again.

For in the hand of the Lord there is a cup with foaming wine, well mixed, and he pours out from it, and all the wicked of the earth shall drain it down to the dregs.
Psalm 75:8

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