From: Ira Kapitonova in Kyiv (Day 1156)
Almost every night, I sit down intending to write my update, but words fail me. I drown in the absurd statements made by “world leaders” and the speculations of “experts.” Most days, I fall asleep before I can come up with something that makes sense. However, there are days when I give up and feel like it’s pointless to say anything. I feel like nothing I say can make a difference, so why bother?
I know that this type of thinking is precisely what the enemy is trying to promote. They want us to feel helpless, and that’s precisely why they resort to terror.
Last night was a dark night for Kyiv. They threw every weapon they had – drones, ballistic and cruise missiles. They hit an apartment building. It was the middle of the night. At least 12 people were killed. My heart breaks from the more personal reports you get.
I read about a group of high schoolers and their teachers who spent the day at the sight of the attack, waiting for their classmate to be rescued from under the debris. Unfortunately, the boy’s lifeless body was recovered in the evening.
Someone overheard a conversation at the women’s store. A lady wanted to buy a nice pajama. The store manager suggested some nice nightgowns, to which the lady responded, “No, thank you. I need some pj’s. I want to look decent if they need to recover me from under the rubble.”
Several organizations have published reminders about things to train your children to do in case you are buried under the rubble. I didn’t want to read them.
After a day like this, I feel like a part of me died with those people. Thankfully, God is good and sends timely encouragement, words of solidarity, and prayers through the wonderful people I came to know. Those words remind me that we are not alone in this fight, and we should persevere until the enemy is defeated.
This is my prayer tonight:
O my God, make them like whirling dust,
like chaff before the wind.
As fire consumes the forest,
as the flame sets the mountains ablaze,
so may you pursue them with your tempest
and terrify them with your hurricane!
Fill their faces with shame,
that they may seek your name, O Lord.
Let them be put to shame and dismayed forever;
let them perish in disgrace,
that they may know that you alone,
whose name is the Lord,
are the Most High over all the earth.
Psalm 83:13-18
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