10/14/2023 – How do I cope?

From Ira Kapitonova in Kyiv (Day 597):

He heals the brokenhearted
and binds up their wounds.
Psalm 147:3

These past couple of weeks have been emotionally exhausting. All the turmoil in the world and worrisome forecasts do not help the situation.

I’ve had several people ask me how I am coping with all of it. Honestly, I don’t know if I have an answer to this question. Over the past year and a half (and the previous years of the war), I’ve grown numb to many horrible things – perhaps that’s my defense mechanism. But my heart is still raw, so the pain around me does get into my heart. On those days, I use two solutions.
The first one is to focus on something practical and important at hand. Last year was weeding or tilling the garden soil or planting. And this year, I have my students, and they are a constant reminder of why we must keep fighting this war.
The second one is to fix my eyes on the One who is bigger than any pain or any evil. When you grasp His greatness and might, you get a better perspective on other things.

Psalm 147 was my tonight’s medicine for the heart. Many of these verses feel distant today, but I pray for their fulfillment in Ukraine in the near future.

Praise the Lord!
For it is good to sing praises to our God;
for it is pleasant, and a song of praise is fitting.
He heals the brokenhearted
and binds up their wounds.
He determines the number of the stars;
he gives to all of them their names.
Great is our Lord, and abundant in power;
his understanding is beyond measure.
The Lord lifts up the humble;
he casts the wicked to the ground.
Sing to the Lord with thanksgiving;
make melody to our God on the lyre!
He covers the heavens with clouds;
he prepares rain for the earth;
he makes grass grow on the hills.
He gives to the beasts their food,
and to the young ravens that cry.
His delight is not in the strength of the horse,
nor his pleasure in the legs of a man,
but the Lord takes pleasure in those who fear him,
in those who hope in his steadfast love.
Praise the Lord, O Jerusalem!
Praise your God, O Zion!
For he strengthens the bars of your gates;
he blesses your children within you.
He makes peace in your borders;
he fills you with the finest of the wheat.
He sends out his command to the earth;
his word runs swiftly.
He gives snow like wool;
he scatters frost like ashes.
He hurls down his crystals of ice like crumbs;
who can stand before his cold?
He sends out his word, and melts them;
he makes his wind blow and the waters flow.
He declares his word to Jacob,
his statutes and rules to Israel.
He has not dealt thus with any other nation;
they do not know his rules.
Praise the Lord!

2 responses to “10/14/2023 – How do I cope?”

  1. A year ago: Oct.14, 2022
    From Lxx (Day 233): Dear brothers and sisters, We had a night without sirens. Praise the Lord!

    It’s a holiday today – the day of Fatherland Defender and this holiday has a special meaning now. Many of my friends of different ages are now in the army, protecting our land. We are very proud of the guys from our church who are fighting for us. We are proud of the workers of our medical clinic, who are now serving in the army, providing medical assistance to our soldiers. I want to say separately about the army of chaplains who serve in the spiritual field in this war. They all are our heroes today.

    Among all things of yesterday there was a very special moment. Sometimes you know exactly that the meeting you have is arranged by God. On Thursday we have a Bible study for the group of refugees in our church, I came earlier to help Valeriy, our elder, who leads the Bible study, to set up chairs, prepare refreshments and drinks for the meeting.

    One lady of the group, L, came earlier. L is from Kharkiv and stays at the building of our Christian clinic and she loves taking care of the plants there, it brings her joy and at the same time is a recovering therapy for her. Her cat Marusya lives with her there.

    It was clear that there was something on her heart. We began to talk and she said that she knew about God from her childhood, her grandmother was a believer and L considered herself to be a believer, too. She used to go to the church on holidays was very respectful of church traditions, but now she feels that something was missing in her life.

    She has been visiting our church for a while and could hear the gospel not just once. But she needed to have the personal talk with V and have all her questions answered. Some people have a special gift of sharing the gospel and they do it in a special way. I think V can do it addressing the hearts of people in such a way that they see this beauty of the gospel.

    Yesterday I talked to our counselor, R. We were talking about our future refugee center and tried to see new directions of our work that we can start, we discussed the aspects of the work we all are doing now and how it can be integrated in one place.

    We found a very nice place for the center with good location and if God blesses us to buy it we will start the work there right away.

    R is busy like all of us. He does counseling in the office and online counseling, he is also an active blogger and you can see his videos on Facebook and Instagram where he addresses different psychological topics, gives practical tips for people with different problems and he teaches psychological self-help techniques (panic attacks, psychology of relationships, depression, anxiety, psychosomatics, urgent help for refugees, etc.)

    Few days ago he did live broadcasting of a very important topic of today, he talked about survivor’s syndrome, when people who survived in mortal danger feel guilty thinking of those who died. Many people were able not only to listen but participate, sharing their experience and asking questions.

    R’s wife works as a nurse in the intensive therapy of one of Odessa hospitals. She works very hard now and her work is hard emotionally. R.asks to pray for her health.

    Please, pray for our counselors, for the work we do and for us to bring fruits.

    Please, pray with us for organizing a refugee center in Odessa and for a facility where the center will be located.

    In Christ,
    Lxxx

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